Finally Feeling Stronger and Wednesday Hodgepodge

Wednesday Hodgepodge

Hi Everyone! I hope you are all still here and reading... I have been MIA dealing with a breakup lately. Little sad...little depressed...little stronger.  I knew it was the right thing to do. I had to walk away to save myself! It sux for today but life goes on!

I am truly happy that I am returning in time for Wednesday HodgePodge this week!! This is another awesome link up - you can join in also! Just answer the questions below and go visit Joyce at From This Side Of The Pond to link up!

1.  On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate your summer so far? Why? (1=eh; 10=best summer ever).  Let's see...I broke it off with the boyfriend (I thought he was a 10) but it turns out that was really bringing me down and causing me to let myself go and lower my standards or what I would tolerate in my life (which made him a 0). As far as travel, I have gone to the lake, New York and Stone Harbor, NJ already for vacations...we are having record high temps here in PA which I love....so I am going to have to give it a 10 so far and I am expecting it to get better and better!!!

2.  July 26th is National Aunts and Uncles Day. Did you have any aunts and uncles growing up? Were you especially close to any one of them or maybe all of them? Are you an aunt (or uncle for the men who join here on Wednesdays)? Share a favorite memory relating to one of your own aunts and uncles or relating to a niece of nephew who call you aunt (or uncle).  I have many aunts and uncles and I am am also aunt to many children! I have a big close family. My Aunt Marti and Aunt Kathy are the ones that I am closest with. They are both not married and would go with us every year on vacation! Those are awesome memories!

3.  What's your favorite food dipped in chocolate? My favorite food to dip in chocolate is bananas! I love to slice them and cover them and then freeze them for great summer treats!  What's your favorite food dipped in cheese? I love tortillas in queso!! YUMMO. That will be my treat to myself when I hit goal weight!


4.  When were you last astonished by something? Explain.  I guess I was astonished when I realized how much pain addiction causes the family of the addict! I am in recovery but to see the other side first hand really blew me away!  I recently learned, first hand, how addiction harms everyone close to the addict but the addict himself sees no issues AT ALL with what they are doing! It is like a path of destruction for years and years and years and if you ask them, they are not hurting anyone but themselves. I have a lot of sympathy for the families of active addicts and alcoholics. It is so hard to let go and walk away but it has to be done or you will go down along with the addict mentally, physically and spiritually.

5.  Surf board, paddle board, ironing board, Pinterest board, scoreboard, clip board, bulletin board...which board have you most recently encountered? Having just been at the beach in Stone Harbor, I will go with paddle board! We rent paddle boards every year on the bay. Here is a photo from last year...I spotted a baby shark while I will riding and I turned around and came right in! My knees were shaking like crazy. I am sure it was harmless but I knew I would lose my mind if I fell in and knew it was there! LOL! I am a big chicken!!

6.  What's your favorite story from Scripture? Why that story?  Matthew 6:9-13 “After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.” Anyone that has ever been a "Friend of Bill's" will understand why ;-)

7.  If you were to travel from the east coast to the west coast in your own country, which five cities would you most want to see?  I have to look at a map for this! LOL! I would start with Florida (I love it there in The Villages!) then to Michigan (Going to hunt for Kidrock) then Oklahoma (I have a good friend Mark there and he swears it is a must see) then to Arizona (I was there for training a few years ago and I did not want to leave) and finally to Washington (I have a wonderful friend Mariela in Seattle and I HAVE to get there soon to visit)!



8.  Insert your own random thought here.   I love my life! I do not have everything I want but I truly have everything I need! Thanks everyone for reading and being my bloggy friends!

Weekend of Personal Accomplishment

Hi all my lovely friends!  I hope everyone had a great weekend! I had a truly awesome weekend!

I got so much done for MYSELF for a change. Now that I am single again - I am focused on me and my home and it is so clean and so pretty! This, in turn, means I am so happy! I truly am! 

I did not realize how much I was ignoring my welfare to "take care" of someone else! WOWSA!

I feel so free and I truly realize that I cannot save that other person! No one is going to change bad habits for someone else and I cant expect that! Anyway...here is my list of accomplishments on my first weekend home being single!!!

1.  wash and scrub fish tanks

2.  change fish tank water and filter

3.  wash and scrub litter boxes

4.  download new recommended iTunes

5.  wash summer cloths and winter clothes

6.  switch out summer for winter clothes in closet

7.  catch up on Survivor, Teen Mom 2, Grimm, Mom and Amazing race episodes

8.  wash windows and sliding glass door

9.  wash car

10. vacuum inside car

11. plant plants and herbs on patio

Along the lines of number 11...here is my patio in all it's glory this year!!!! I bought out Home Depot and Portmann's! But I cannot wait to chill out this whole summer on my patio!!!

First this lovely plant!!!

Got this beauty at Portmann's...and hung up the hummingbird feeders....have not seen one yet though...they should be here soon!

 A pot of flowers on the corner...

Another beautiful hanging pot!

And my favorite....fresia!!!

 Another corner pot of flowers!

And herbs!!! parsley, thyme, oregano and dill

A columbine flower in yellow and rosemary!

This is the panoramic view. If you are in the area, stop by and we can sit and have tea on my patio! I love company!

I hope everyone has a great week! Take care of yourself and others!  Happy Tuesday!

 

Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes...

Hi everyone! I hope everyone had a better weekend then me! Wowsa! 

Actually that is not exactly accurate...

I had a great weekend if I focus on the positives and that is PRECISELY what I plan to do from now on! I have always been a happy and cheerful person and lately I am kind of crotchety and grouchy and not as pleasant. I decided that some serious life changes needed ot happen and now they have...well, at least they are starting.

I can only share one aspect so far but here it is. Me and the BF are DONE! Enough is enough. All I am going to say is that when I evaluated the relationship, there was NOTHING in it for me. I was getting absolutely NOTHING from the relationship at all! SERIOUSLY!  I am not exaggerating at all by this. I am still baffled that it took me so long to bail but I honestly thought he was trying to change and I really felt bad after he had a family tragedy at the beginning of the year. Again, ENOUGH is ENOUGH! When I can feel myself becoming unhappy, it is time to run so I am long over due for running away! LOL!

So I am single! YIPPEE....MAYBE...LOL! So that is change one and there are more to come that I hope I can share SOON!!!!


So that is the crappy part of the weekend....which, if you think about it really is not that crappy. Time to open new doors. 

The rest of my weekend rocked!!! My little sister came into town and it was an awesome visit! We spent the day together shopping and making some necklaces for my nieces friends that are making their First Holy Communion. Here is what we made...
 

They are available to purchase and personalize in my Etsy shop HERE if you are interested.

After a fun Saturday of shopping and jewelry making, we went to a reunion for our Twirling Corps. I twirled from about 6 years old all the way through high school. We were members of the Modernettes and we were the Grand World National Champions every year!

Here are some photos from the night...

This is our amazing dance teacher that started it all! She is and always was CLASSY!

Here is a shot of the group I hung out with a lot! These are some of my favorite faces EVER!!! I literally grew up with these girls!

Of course there was a photo booth and, of course, I completely monopolized it!

Love this chick! We still hang out often these days!

And the group shot! This was such a great night! I hope they do another one next year!

Wish me luck on my new life!!! More changes and announcements to come......

Just in case no one told you they love you today, I love you!

Happy Monday!

Thanks Honey Boo Boo

Well, it worked!! I sat and enjoyed all twelve episodes of Honey Boo Boo up until the finale when June and Sugar Bear are married!! It is hard to admit but I actually cried when June and Sugie exchanged vows...scary I know. I must be emotional today with the break up but all in all that show makes me smile and it was just what I needed!!! It is so hard when you realize that someone was nothing like you thought all along.....But better I learned in three months rather than allowing him to steal three years, right?!?!?!

Then I went to my favorite place on the planet in the Winter and Fall! Trax Farms!! In the fall - their pumpkins and apples are the best and they make this homemade apple caramel dip that is to DIE for!!! I love me some Jonagold apples!!! I wanted one so bad I could not wait to eat one until I got home - I broke this out in the car!

I also got these at Trax....Concord grapes. They have a very short season and they are sooooooo yummo!!! My great Aunt Martha used to have a grapevine in her backyard and we used to eat these right off the vine when we went to visit....they bring back sooooo many awesome memories!!! Oh, to have those days back!!

Now that I am over forty, I can not figure out why I ever wanted to grow up....I would go back in a heartbeat! Miss those carefree and no responsibility days!!
I hope you all are having a happy weekend!!! I am making the very best of mine...thanks for all the support and love from Bloggy Land.
You guys rock!!!

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The Final Break Up

 

So........

Last night it finally happened....

The night I have been waiting for...

The "latest loser boyfriend" and I have broken up.

I knew it was coming sooner than later and now, suprisingly, I am a little bummed and miss knowing that someone out there loves me but I am also kind of okay with it.

For those that dont know my history, I am recently out of a very one sided relationship. Waliacha moved in with me and then basically quit his job and started using drugs and it took me three years to get him out of my home and my life. So, now I am very guarded and have A LOT of bounderies.

I told the new man right up front that I had these bounderies and he was fine with it all at first. Then gradually he was pushing for more. I think he thought if he kept pushing then little by little I would give in. First problem, stop dating men that live with roomates as they are only looking for a roof. Anyway, I held my ground and he finally realized that I was serious about my bounderies.

When I went on my beach vacation, he thought I should leave him my key so he could come in and use my house and shower when I was gone (he and his roomates water was shut off at the time because the roomate did not pay the bill). I did not feel comfortable with that. So, he brings it up whenever possible that I did not even let him brush his teeth here....stupid stupid stupid!

I told him that the only way we would live together was in his home and that I was willing to wait for him to put his life together for that...however, I think he has finally realized that it is easier to cut and run and find a woman willing to let him move in with her.

Of well, single again...

FIrst questions for the new man will be...

1. Do you have a home?

2. Do you have a postivie bank account?

3. Is you car inspection up to date?

4. Are creditors calling you daily?

5. Are you passive agressive or do you have communication skills?

Is that too much to ask!?!???! PROBABLY, so maybe it is just simplier to stay single. HEE HEE...

UUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!

Soooooo, I am spending my day cheering myself up with a little Honey Boo Boo!!! I have about 15 episodes to watch...yippee!!!

 

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:-(

It's such a sad day...

You know when you know you need to do something and just do not want to?

That's where I have been for a few days now. It is all in regards to that man I was dating and recently I started noticing things would happen and I would worry and lose sleep over them and he would not. Not that I want him to lose sleep but I also realize that if you pretend a situation is not there then you never do anything to change it either. I have worked hard to get my life together and be responsible and live a certain way and I just decided that I cannot fall any deeper for someone that does not also feel this way.  Does that sound weird or egotistical?

I feel really sad though! We were only dating a couple months but I cared about him as a friend before that so I think the love feelings came faster and stronger. Oh well, I spoke with him in person about it last night and we are calling it quits.  I was surprised at his reaction as he did not even seem to care either way. He just said "thanks for the memories".  So it appears to be hunky dory with him. Is it wrong that I am upset that he was not upset when I broke it off? I think maybe I am.  Oh well, in any case, I did the right thing according to my gut feeling and that is all I have to go on. In the past, I would have stayed with him for a few more years because I do not like to hurt people and I would have been afraid to tell him I wanted to call it quits. HA....stupid I know.   Progress, right?!?!

Anyway, if you know any cute, sweet and established men......send them my way please!!!