Nermie hard decision

Hi everyone! I hope everyone is doing fantastic this week!

Just wanted to check in because you guys have been so super supportive and I wanted to keep you posted.

We’ve had multiple check-in‘s with the vet regarding Nermal and his glucose numbers. For those new here- Nermal is my cat that was diagnosed with diabetes about two months ago after losing four pounds in one month. After we first started shots his numbers were in the 700s. After about two weeks we got them down to 500. That was giving him 2 units in the morning and 2 units at night and basically hand feeding him special diabetic cat food.  When I took him back the next time his numbers were back up in the 700s again. So the vet moved him to 3 units at night and 3 units in the morning. We tried that for about two more weeks and when I took him back this time the numbers were still up. So then the vet wanted to try 4 units in the morning and 4 units at night. I explained to him that Nerm is not acting like himself anymore. He never plays and all he does is lay in bed and sleep all day. I told him I was considering euthanasia due to him not having any quality of life at all. My vet said since he’s only six he did not agree and didn’t think we should even consider that yet.

I’ve been doing 4 units in the morning and 4 at night for a couple of days now and he is still filling the litter box within 6 hours with pee. He’s moping around the condo or he just lays on the bed all day. He doesn’t even watch birds anymore or try to play. He used to play all day. He really just lays there. He is not the same cat he used to be and I just can’t justify making him suffer anymore. My vet wants me to continue trying but I’ve decided I can’t put him through this anymore.

I contacted the at-home euthanasia vet that I used before when my last cat had liver cancer. She agrees that it’s time. So I’ve made an appointment for Saturday at 1 PM to allow him to pass on peacefully.

Any and all prayers are definitely appreciated. I honestly just can’t justify putting him through this anymore.

Please pray for me-this is going to tear my heart out but I simply can not watch him suffer with no quality of life any longer.

Good Cry Anyone?

Well not gonna lie…

Today is not what I would call the best day ever.

First thing this morning I realized that both my dermatologist and my medicine are not covered under my new insurance plan. So that’s lovely. I see a dermatologist yearly because I have psoriatic arthritis. The psoriasis piece has been really controlled with Stelara. Needless to say, Stelara and my doctor are both not covered under my new plan. So I need to research and find a new doctor, have all of my patient records sent to them and then find a new med for my psoriasis. 

Then I took the med dosage Calc test. You have to get a 92% to pass (you can miss two). It didn’t go well at all. Thank goodness they give us one more try to re-take the test. I messed up the simplest thing. The wording threw me off. The question was asking for a flow rate on an electronic pump and for some reason I labeled them gtt/min instead of ml/hr and there were three in a row. You can only miss two and I missed all three of those.  Pretty much spent the afternoon crying about that one. Now I’m over it and I’m ready to retake it because I know what I did wrong and as frustrating as it is it was, it was my own stupid mistake.

In the afternoon it started pouring down rain here in Pittsburgh. It was super dark outside and everything was just super gloomy all day here.

Around dinner time I took Nermal (my cat) in for his two week vet check for his diabetes. His numbers went down from close to 800 to around 420. The vet said that was great but he’s only gained an ounce. So we’re bumping him up to two units in the morning and three units at night. We will do that for a week and if I still notice he’s peeing a lot I’m supposed to bump it up to three units in the morning and three units at night.

Here’s the little cutie sleeping in his cat tree cube…

When I see it written here it doesn’t seem like it should have been such a great catastrophe but it certainly felt like one today. I was just super sad and super overwhelmed in waves. I don’t know if anyone else has had a day like this but it’s almost like waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I just wanted to check in because you’ve all been so super supportive about my nursing decision and although I really tried and studied hard I missed three stupid questions. I realize now it’s all good and I’ll do better on my next retake.

I need to go to bed now and hopefully I will have a better restart tomorrow. I am going to a conference tomorrow that I’m super excited about so I will send a whole bunch of pictures this weekend.  Thank us I have an amazing responsible cat sitter that I trust with my cats lives. She loves my cats as much as I do. She’s coming to take care of all my babies and Nermal’s shots over the weekend. It’s a lot of work so she is definitely a saint. So that’s a bright spot! 

Hugs to each and everyone of you… Thanks for being there when I need to talk these things out. You guys are another bright spot!! Hugs!

Ever have one of those days when things one after the other just keep going wrong? Ever have a day where you just feel overwhelmed? Ever have a day where the smallest thing goes wrong and it feels huge? Ever have a day when you just needed to have a good cry?

Stay safe out there!

Sick Baby Boy

Here is a quick video of the five baby bluebirds...I will not check on them anymore as they are ready to fledge soon and I will be cleaning out the nest within two weeks or so and getting it ready for the next batch :-) yippee!!!!!!! I stopped by on Saturday to tell them to have safe and happy lives!!! Here are my first five babies ready to soon head out and make their own families!!!

My sweet little boy Kidrock has been sick and we made our way to the vet today for a little checkup and medicine...he HATED it!!! He flatened himself out like a pancake and laid on the metal table with his little head down...they gave him two x-rays, 2 shots, catlax, and fluid IV's! $300 later and it looks like he is feeling better this am before I left for work-yippee!!!!!!! Here he is at the vet....LOL

And finally, this is my workout summary from class last night - the instructor is Leslie and she has a KILLER spin class...522 calories and 23.5 miles!!! NICE!!!

ONE MORE DAY TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPEE FOR ME!!!!!

Happy Tuesday all!!!!!!