Happy Monday and Clarifications

Happy Monday everyone!

I’ve gotten a few questions after my post regarding interviews. I figured I should take this post to clear things up.

So basically I’ve lost my job. They gave us a two month notice during which time we are being paid. So my current job officially ends on December 30. At that time I will no longer be an employee of Bayer. We are receiving severance for all of our direct employee years so that will definitely help.

My plan moving forward is to get out of IT and six sigma and become a nurse. I just want to do some thing that makes a difference in this world. Sadly I can’t go to nursing school for two years and not work… I just can’t afford it. So the plan is to work and go to nursing school on nights and weekends.

I have been working with the nursing director at CCAC which is where I plan to attend nursing school. She is trying to get me a spot in the spring class of 2021. They only except 200 students and I am too late to be considered for enrollment but she is thinking a few students may decide not to go which will free up a spot for me.

In order to be considered for the program by the nursing director; I had to take the TEAS test. It tests your current level of math, science, English and reading comprehension.  I bought the book and studied really hard (Nermal  studied with me- so much that he got highlighted) ha!

I scored a 79 overall. I didn’t think it was that great but from what they are telling me at the nursing college it is. So I am super proud of myself! Fingers crossed it is enough to get me into nursing college in the spring. If a position does not open up in Spring 2021, then they will put me in the Fall 2021 class.

But all of this just explains why I am currently looking for employment - I wish I were able to just stay home and do school but my current situation does not allow for that. I guess this would be one of those times in life that would be easier if I had a spouse! Ha ha!

If you have any others questions, pleases do not hesitate to ask. If I have an answer I will tell you it. This is new territory for me to navigate! 

I will leave you with this...I have some friends that are saying they will not wear a mask because they think it will make you sick somehow...

I personally think “Mask it or Casket”. I have tried to educate myself on this subject and I pray that everyone I love wears a mask! I can not make anyone do it but I have already lost three friends here in PA and had many others hospitalized for weeks!!! 

I pray you all stay safe and happy and let’s get through this Covid thing once and for all!!!!! Ugh!!

This picture came up on my Facebook memories last night. My aunt posted it of a family trip we took to Washington DC.

For left to right...my Aunt Marti (it’s her birthday today), grandma Wells (she is in Heaven), and my Mom in the black shirt. None of those people on the right were with us. Also, my older sister is in the striped dress and I am in the yellow jumper in front of my Mom. 

I assume my Dad was taking the picture standing in the middle of the road! Ha! Also, where are my sisters pants?!?!! Ha ha!

I hope you all have a fantastic week!!! Sending so many hugs to you all!!

Stay safe and happy everyone!!!! Hugs!

Suck It Up Buttercup!

 Okay guys!!!

A month ago I was pre-notified that I will be notified in October that my job here in Pittsburgh has been eliminated.

We were all given the option to make ourselves available for positions in St. Louis, MI and / or Whippany, NJ if we were willing to move. I declined.

This job loss comes as no surprise since the company announced the site closure more than a year ago.

So, why you ask am I so sad and depressed??? I do not know....

I was expecting it totally but after 15 years of employment there; I have to admit it hit m hard.

I am not even completely done until next month but I have not been feeling great at all.

So, I have been doing the bare minimum. I have been getting up and logging into work from home and that is about it. I have going to see my parents on the weekends but deep down inside I have not been okay. I make no effort to bath everyday or try to look nice....some days I do not make it out of jammies!!! I think it has been a combination of Covid shock and job shock! HA

I am now at the point where I need to begin to "get out there" and live again!! I did not want to post because I try really hard to be positive on this blog and I just did not have it in me. But please know I have missed you all sooo very much and your sweet and caring comments (even the tough ones) have been so appreciated!

It is way overdo so I am now going to commit to a few things that will help my drag my butt out of the funk. Time to pull up my big girl pants and make sure the next chapter is the best yet!!!  I will be making the following commitments to myself...

• cook healthy keto every night for dinner and get my weight under control
• take at least one walk outside a day
• get my butt out to barre class in person whenever possible (I have been doing online classes and it is not the same - I cheat sooo much when I am not there in person)
• Begin looking for a new job that I can work while going to school!!!

Yes, you read that last bullet right. I have decided that I need to make a difference in this world and I can not imagine returning to the corporate world so I will be going back to school ASAP for nursing. I will be taking classes at a local college and with any luck, will get my RN within the next two years.

I am so super excited! My mother was a nurse and my aunt too and they loved it! I am super excited to make a difference to someone instead of pushing papers and working behind a desk.

I will need to find a job to pay bills while I go to school but I am ready to commit to building an even more amazing life than I had before this chapter.

So, again, thank you so much to all of you for your kind words and your "tough" words - every one of your comments helped me move through this in their way.

On another note: I have an update for all my long time readers.  I am sure you all remember my last boyfriend. We were together off and on for over four years.  He had a stroke and was not doing anything to help himself get better so I had to walk away over a year ago. Well, his daughter has notified me that he had another stroke and is in a nursing care home. He is confined to a wheelchair and can only move his fingers and head.

I went to visit him through the window and his mouth moved soo much but i could not hear what he was saying. Then he turned away and would not look at me at all. I could not tell if he was sleeping or what. The nursing home asked if I wanted to set up a zoom call with him but I asked them to check with him first because it seemed weird to me that he had turned his head away and I did not want to do any harm by visiting. They called me today and said he does not want me to visit anymore. So it is what it is. I said some very harsh things to him the last time we broke up due to his continued drug use after a stroke and sadly; it has turned out exactly like I said it would so I am sure that has something to do with his decision. I will always love him as we were friends for years before we started dating and I wish him peace. He has family that visits so that is good. His daughter let me know today that they are starting hospice because of his fast decline. If you have any spare prayers please send some his way - his name is Mark.

I am so happy to begin this new chapter and see what life brings. Thank you all for your patience and your comments. They all meant so much during this break!! I am back with a vengeance and ready to take on whatever comes my way.

Hugs and love to you all! I hope you have all been well and safe and I am going to go catch up now!

XOXOXOXOXO

UGH to the future

Hi guys!

I have got to confess...This pending job loss is hitting hard right now.

UGH!

I am struggling to stay motivated and I am seriously bummed. It is like I have no motivation to do ANYTHING.

I have not even been let go yet and I am so sad and unmotivated!! I hate this feeling so much.

I am going to try to check in more frequently but seriously, it has been everything to just spend time with my family and try to stay positive this past month or so.

I have so many updates and posts for you but I just can not bring myself to do it!

I am signing off to pray for motivation and courage to face whatever chapter is next.

HUGS to you all!!!